Wednesday, April 18, 2012
HI BITCHES
HAHA HELLO BITCHES THIS IS A NICE BOUNCE BACK FROM THE PREVIOUS THREE SAS POSTS UH HAHA. I'm really quite prone to mood swings ah.
AH YES I DON'T NEED TO REDO MY TOK FUCKYEAH.
AND I ACTUALLY DID WORK TODAY. ECONS IA PLUS 1.5 CAS FORMS.
And it's 3:27 now LAWLAWLAWLAWL.
Maybe I'm just happy cos I just might have found someone. Though the thought is still weird. It's a nice way to forget about her though. AH JUST HAVE FUN LA RIGHT.
posted : 3:25 AM
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Monday, April 16, 2012
Across the Universe
Even if we were just two spirits floating around in space, I'd still love you.
Remember?
posted : 9:51 PM
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Maybe next time
I just miss you so much. Miss us.
Miss that feeling, knowing that we had each other. Or at least, believing, since it was all a lie anyway. You'd make my life a whole lot better right now.
You probably don't remember this. You never appreciated anything I wrote for you. (This is really crappy writing by the way)
Maybe next time
Fmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7/Cmaj7
Fmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7/C7 x2
Maybe this time, I'll learn
Maybe this time, I'll know for sure
Maybe this time, I'll be a man
Maybe this time, I'll sacrifice all I am
C/C/Bm7/Am7 x4
Well you said you're leaving
Maybe we should stop believing
But I'll keep staying on my toes
Cos no one ever really knows
Fmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7/Cmaj7
Fmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7/C7 x2
Maybe next time, we'll be happy
Maybe next time, we'll change nappies
Maybe next time, we'll be together at last
Maybe next time, we'll forget this past
posted : 9:30 PM
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Sunday, April 15, 2012
Pools of Sorrow, Waves of Joy
So apparently, we all got first in the guitar ensemble competition? :DWe went up there, played amazingly, and brought home that huge-ass trophy.
Proud of you, whoever's reading this, if it applies to you. It really made me happy though, that moment of ecstasy where we were all just hugging each other and screaming on the balcony of that auditorium. Been a long time since I felt so alive (: Even playing the solo was just a bit of nervousness, a dash of panic, and a lot of I-have-no-idea-what-I'm-doing, and some desire to slap myself for missing some notes, and amusement for winking at Nash (HI NASH). But really felt ALIVE during those few moments. I love all of you guys. (: Great phototaking session afterwards as well. I'm not a camwhore but hey who can resist groups of 4 on a zebra crossing eh. Still waiting for the pics Kester/Shiuan.
So anyway, they broke up. Kinda. They're gonna live life to the fullest, do what they want when they want to. Too early for commitment, she says. So it means she's available, but still in love with him, for the most part.
There's always (and probably always will be) that part of me that wants to get back with her even though
1. She's still in love with him.
2. I only want it because it's over.
3. It's for the worse.
4. She probably still hates me.
5. It won't work out.
But there's still that hope that in the end, everything will be made right, everything will come full circle. I can only leave it to God to tell me the way to go.
And it still irks me how I want to talk to you through the night,
catch your metaphorical tears, like I used to. Even though I'm not the man best suited for the job. Ah well, life's life. Very good things happen, yet we cling on to sad things. Why are we all addicted to the sadness. Well whatever, thanks for reading. (:
posted : 12:41 AM
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Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Greetings again.
WHEN WE LAST LEFT OFF-Gjernpower left CHC for greener pastures...
...OR DID HE?
LET"S FIND OUT.
Yeah. I did. As in. I left cos I hated the place. Don't you guys get any ideas about asking me back, if any of you read this.
And well, when we last left off I was just starting my new life with Pearlyn. Sigh. 2 and a half years. Well now SHE moved on to greener pastures. Left her miserable life with me, now with a great guy, who I hope is treating her well. Eh? Mr Canadia? Eh.
So I shall spare all of you the sob story. I'm quite sure any of you who see this already know most of it anyway. So now I'm just here, remembering that I have this little shithole in the internet I can call my own. I'm supposed to be doing my ToK slides...I kinda am. And also getting distracted by Rush. and blogging. And I just got flamed by my EE mentor, gotta practically rewrite most of it.
I made a lot of new friends, left a lot of old ones. Met old friends and made them kinda new again i suppose? Well to all my new friends, thanks for being a part of my life. And to all my old friends reading this, I'm so sorry, really. I knew what I was giving up. I knew. I just thought what I was giving it up for would be worth it, and not gone in a few years. Maybe those 2 and a half years really were worth giving you up? Sounds so mean but. I don't know anything anymore. Now I just wish I can repair those friendships. But that's a bit of a stretch huh. I bet you're all really different now. I know I am.
I don't know who the real me is. Is there supposed to be a core part of me that never changes, or have I really changed so many times in the past few years. I told Kester (HI KESTER) this, and I tweeted it as well a few weeks back; People never change, they only learn and forget.
This will be a much better place for me to vent my feelings, rather than on twitter. A bit too open. And I have to exercise a lot more discretion. And since I'll probably only have one reader a week I can pretty much say whatever the fuck I want. Like I'm gay.
So here's to 2012, to life, to this little abode (shithole), and to my probably infrequent posts in the future. Cheers.
posted : 3:59 AM
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