So apparently, we all got first in the guitar ensemble competition? :DWe went up there, played amazingly, and brought home that huge-ass trophy.
Proud of you, whoever's reading this, if it applies to you. It really made me happy though, that moment of ecstasy where we were all just hugging each other and screaming on the balcony of that auditorium. Been a long time since I felt so alive (: Even playing the solo was just a bit of nervousness, a dash of panic, and a lot of I-have-no-idea-what-I'm-doing, and some desire to slap myself for missing some notes, and amusement for winking at Nash (HI NASH). But really felt ALIVE during those few moments. I love all of you guys. (: Great phototaking session afterwards as well. I'm not a camwhore but hey who can resist groups of 4 on a zebra crossing eh. Still waiting for the pics Kester/Shiuan.
So anyway, they broke up. Kinda. They're gonna live life to the fullest, do what they want when they want to. Too early for commitment, she says. So it means she's available, but still in love with him, for the most part.
There's always (and probably always will be) that part of me that wants to get back with her even though
1. She's still in love with him.
2. I only want it because it's over.
3. It's for the worse.
4. She probably still hates me.
5. It won't work out.
But there's still that hope that in the end, everything will be made right, everything will come full circle. I can only leave it to God to tell me the way to go.
And it still irks me how I want to talk to you through the night,
catch your metaphorical tears, like I used to. Even though I'm not the man best suited for the job. Ah well, life's life. Very good things happen, yet we cling on to sad things. Why are we all addicted to the sadness. Well whatever, thanks for reading. (:
